Which do you feed?
If you’re trying to satisfy the ego, that’s a Sisyphean task. Oh, sure. For a moment the hungry monster ego feels gratified and happy when you knock em dead in an audition or win some coveted award/contest/game. The ever-expanding Python-like ego smiles broadly, burps, and looks really pleased—for about an hour. Kinda like Chinese food though, anything that feeds the ego just does not last. Gotta keep feeding it. Filling it is not gonna happen.
The heart, however, is easily and sweetly satisfied. And, oddly, what feeds the heart is about sharing and giving: sharing one’s creativity, helping someone else with their creativity, offering a helping hand, contributing to others. The heart says, “Here. Here’s what I have. Let me feed you. Oh, good. You like it?! You think it’s wonderful?!”
And, in that moment, that dangerous moment of hearing someone thinks it’s wonderful, the ego races in and snatches the food away from the heart because it does not have a clue about sharing. “Gimme that! They liked it! It’s mine! I need more applause! More validation! More approval!”
Being an artist is so treacherous in that way. The loud, hungry monster ego is always there ready to leap in. And if it doesn’t get what it wants, it cries. It stomps its feet. It has temper tantrums. “I didn’t get enough! I didn’t get that part! I hate this world. I’m going to retreat and never come out again!” And, the poor little heart is trampled all over by the feet of the dragon ego as it races into isolation.
It is so difficult not to fall into the trap of wanting to GET love rather that knowing life is best when we SHARE the love we have.
The good news is that the heart is unbelievably resilient. It will come back to life in the smallest places. All it needs is a little room and it is ready to give and to share.
Love the poor ego. Embrace it. Hug it, but don’t feed it junk food.
Instead, feed your heart by sharing your light today.